I've got almost FIVE BOSSES in a year and a half!!!

All are my direct bosses

I hate two of them

I kinda love and hate two of them at the same time (one is love (much more than anyone but also hate s'times) more than hate another is moderate love and hate)

and I love one of them (moderately love)

Complicated uh?

Can we be friends with our BOSSY BOSSES??

Can I just stay with the one with my moderately love?? (but dunno if her upper boss's gonna be more bitchy!)

Though staying with the one who I both love and hate seems fun but it is also stressful sometimes

But I'm glad I can get rid out of the worst two first :) :D oh I couldn't believe!

But here at my work place noone's soooooooo bitchy that it can't be accepted since it's small and cosy

Kinda niche...haha

We got combinations of all hi-so too:) not me of course

We got a lovely company owner

Jazzy MD who I ADMIRE THE MOST!!!!

and other hi-so researchers haha:)

Anyway it's all about people management and boss management

Though I can "act" s'times I'm not good at it so I kinda be myself almost all times

work hard play hard

stay by the rule

try to make people love me

shitty things actually but true

I just don't good at wearing masks and yeah be a star on the stage of play

And when I try to be friends with the boss then I don't really know how it's gonna turn out to be

At first I did cos I wanna help my helpful side is so strong that I wanna help anyone if I can

then I don't know if it's gonna turn out to be something stabbing me at the back

If I am used!

and I really pray SHE's NICE AT HER HEART

that I give it all I didn't wanna receive anything back but DON'T JUST USE ME

It HURTS

I really hope work life is work life use me coach me as hard as you can

(but gimme some air too)

but don't make me some personal assistant like in devil wears prada

(this is not happening just yet)

I'm not anyone's PDA I'm just the work assistant

I can be a friend but not in a working business environment

THIS IS CLEAR that I WILL STEP UP if ANYTHING TURNS WRONG

I gotta have ability to deal with it some day

Everything's good and happy nowadays I like to go to work so much

I like to meet people at my office and so on

I got quite positive attitude all the time

so I pray on your MOODY little side DON'T RUIN THIS

40-ish spoiled by a husband should decrease the EGO:P

but she's so nice tho at the same time and I LOVE HER and 'lil hate her (moody thingy) at the same time so... I think one person gotta have one thing to be like "shit she's a bitch" but in an acceptable way:)

PRAY FOR ME and hmm... and hmmm..

 

 

Hello the blog:)

I'm sorry I haven't written anything for so long

I'm kinda missing it...

A lot of things happened and I try to keep pace with everything

IN A GOOD WAY :)

My pay's ok. My job's doing alright with nice people surrounding.

It's been almost 8 months now :) I'm so glad.

I hmmm.. realise that I really want to "BE LOVED" and be in a friendly environment

where I don't have to wear a mask that often

I mean ok people management skill is one of the most critical talent to develop

and you shouldn't call it "fake" or "pretentious" or "confabulated"

I'm trying harder and harder to develop such low skills I've got but sooner or later

if it doesn't change me into "a devil wears prada" kinda person I'm ok.

 

 

Situation in my country is now not very pleasant

Our king even didn't give the speech on his birthday as usual

The airport was closed  because of the protest against the current government

Today the airport is now opened; however, with tremendous loss of our country

This affects every sectors

The economy tends to slow down especially the export sector

This also affects "consumer spending" meaning "consumer goods" meaning "FMCG:

Fast Moving Consumer Goods" meaning "Research Industry"

actually EVERYONE of US

RECESSION everyone it's coming now!

Both globally>> the dame US economy collaspe

>>the dame almost CIVIL war in my own beloved country

DOUBLE CAUSES>>DOUBLE EFFECTS

I'm sad how our country tends to devastate ok, too harsh that way

I think it's more like running "Backward" we should get moving forward, shouldn't we?

Look at Malaysia, can you see how they develop?

Look at Vietnam, OMG... they tend to moving faster than us

What are WE DOING? 

Sometimes I wanna escape

My stubborn side said go to hell I'll be leaving this I can be better off!

Sometimes I wanna help

I wanna do the charity to help I wanna be a part of the industry development

I really think I can help in some ways, low profile- approach

I don't expect much 

I like to live happily ever after like a fairytale

that was made for me (that's too much already uh?)

but if I cannot get it it also doesn't matter

and Thailand's situation's nothing like a fairytale

can a 23 y.o. girl survive?

I'm sure with every minute of being awake... things're gonna be better

Being awake... a key to every single mess....

edit @ 6 Dec 2008 11:39:21 by ~.~bOw~.~

I've been changing JOBS

3 jobs on a row

sometimes it's killing me this truth

sometimes it just doesn't matter

though someone may think I can't do one job that long

or maybe my toleration's too less

but people who know me

know I'm the tolerant

I know it sounds crazy but sometimes I just have to let it go

you know? just let it go

and breathe in and out

knowing what I am doing now and what I should be doing

and though I don't believe much in fortuneteller

I believe I got the best luck

always and forever

I'm the luckiest girl

ok overclaimed...

I'm just through some sort of stormy nights

and hell

and bitchies around

and I don't wanna talk about it

and this should get going, the good thing

I mean in the past, I've been on the changing stage of life

you know secondary to high school I suffered from studying physics and maths

I HATE!

and I've changed the plan to study Math-Arts (which I also hate maths)

and...at BBA I studied accounting oh...can't believe I did

and I was SUCK at that so much 3 times of practising on 100 questions exercises

(without understanding) and I cannot just remember everything and do the analysis

on my bullshit whatsoever

so I ended up throwing shit to myself out of score under the mean!

ENOUGH

then I changed to study marketing

which I really like it

at the study scheme I love marketing courses sooooo much

especially the consumer behaviour part

oh...I'm not overclaimed I really like it

and my life in the UK, fabulous

tho I hate to do that shitty reports sometimes

and enjoyed it sometimes

cos the grader's tough of course

life's been bullshit for two years and fabulous for another two

now struggle for a little while

upz and downz I mean

when starting a new thing I should get the rough tough everyone does

but I'm sure I'm getting through

and I'm not studpid you hear what I'm saying

I think I'm not bullshit

so...sort of some professions would suit me

and I really hope this one does

and I think I can learn how to cope with people too

people people

hope I meet only NICE people

oh that's not possible again but I do hope

Now changing the topic

my friends're (almost) all using the BLUSH

(the one you put on your cheeks to be cheerful reddy like a girl running in the sunlight)

from NARS brand

and everyone keeps talking about how ORGASM is great

"you should buy one oragsm"

no I'm not being rude here it's the name of the colour

ORGASM

and I became one of the fool of buying NARS blush

but mine is OASIS (the pink sparkling champaign colour)

and when people start using it and my friends had it one or two colours

ONLY NARS BRAND

I start to feel irritated

why I gotta follow others on this crappy blush

I mean it's not that crap

but people keep on saying how good it is and people insist again it's really good

have you tried one

and I've tried and it's just NORMAL

ooooooooh and I have clinique blush "sweet apple" for yearz

yearz and it's not run out I think I should throw it away cos it's too old

but I'm not I like it

I'm not that chic or differentiated or...stylish or anything of that

but I"M IRRITATED it's just fine not great I think people 

Exaggerated

or I'm being biased

it's just a blush

oh! I'm being bribed by a MASCARA from lancome this morning

I'm not that shallowwwwwwwwwwwww plz

so I'm guilty of using it

doesn't mean you give me a mascara then I work till my deadth arrive PLZ

it haunts me bad memories

*sigh

gotta concentrate and forget

yeah choosing between LOVE and LABELS

I'm choosing L    A     B   E   L   S

uh? how bout you?

labels

labels

why nice guyz all gone with the wind

and left me lonely happy here?

lonely happy!

single but happy is that ok? it's me here haha...

think I'm afraid of relationship already tho none happened before

hmm....I still be the main character's BEST FRIEND of all times

listening to shit he leaves me and shit he doesn't call and shit he f*** other girls

and etc...shit

well I'm superfine here

and I MISS YOU!

(labels)

edit @ 2 Jul 2008 21:17:57 by ~.~bOw~.~