Strangely that this week, though I got sick, got no own projects :):)

Can't believe in this world I can say such things.

 

Unfortunately... I got sick

not sick of someone but sick physically...

anyway...have a little irritation on the throat T_T

I wonder what others may feel like today...I look at myself and see my same old self

and I wonder

what will life suppose to be... is there actually another life

then suddenly all the thought came up to the same old point

just concentrate on this moment! oh the easiest thing is hardest to do

and I always say hey I'm trying...

This can't be applied to the way to abandone everything...yeah abandone both grieve and happiness

'Cos people always say where there's a will, there's a way

I just heard the different words but TRUE

Where there's a will, there's NO WAY

because you always want things, with WILL, you always still want things

so there's NO WAY you can abandone things...the truth of life

This life...we have.... is full of both shits

both SHITS

and happiness...I still enjoy happiness and bully the shits

I'm one of the million....s'times I bored of shit and bored of happinesss

but not as much as shit

anyway

where there's a WILL, there's NO WAY...

very new to me but very truthful

(this is from Dhamma CD I listened yesterday :):))

I've got almost FIVE BOSSES in a year and a half!!!

All are my direct bosses

I hate two of them

I kinda love and hate two of them at the same time (one is love (much more than anyone but also hate s'times) more than hate another is moderate love and hate)

and I love one of them (moderately love)

Complicated uh?

Can we be friends with our BOSSY BOSSES??

Can I just stay with the one with my moderately love?? (but dunno if her upper boss's gonna be more bitchy!)

Though staying with the one who I both love and hate seems fun but it is also stressful sometimes

But I'm glad I can get rid out of the worst two first :) :D oh I couldn't believe!

But here at my work place noone's soooooooo bitchy that it can't be accepted since it's small and cosy

Kinda niche...haha

We got combinations of all hi-so too:) not me of course

We got a lovely company owner

Jazzy MD who I ADMIRE THE MOST!!!!

and other hi-so researchers haha:)

Anyway it's all about people management and boss management

Though I can "act" s'times I'm not good at it so I kinda be myself almost all times

work hard play hard

stay by the rule

try to make people love me

shitty things actually but true

I just don't good at wearing masks and yeah be a star on the stage of play

And when I try to be friends with the boss then I don't really know how it's gonna turn out to be

At first I did cos I wanna help my helpful side is so strong that I wanna help anyone if I can

then I don't know if it's gonna turn out to be something stabbing me at the back

If I am used!

and I really pray SHE's NICE AT HER HEART

that I give it all I didn't wanna receive anything back but DON'T JUST USE ME

It HURTS

I really hope work life is work life use me coach me as hard as you can

(but gimme some air too)

but don't make me some personal assistant like in devil wears prada

(this is not happening just yet)

I'm not anyone's PDA I'm just the work assistant

I can be a friend but not in a working business environment

THIS IS CLEAR that I WILL STEP UP if ANYTHING TURNS WRONG

I gotta have ability to deal with it some day

Everything's good and happy nowadays I like to go to work so much

I like to meet people at my office and so on

I got quite positive attitude all the time

so I pray on your MOODY little side DON'T RUIN THIS

40-ish spoiled by a husband should decrease the EGO:P

but she's so nice tho at the same time and I LOVE HER and 'lil hate her (moody thingy) at the same time so... I think one person gotta have one thing to be like "shit she's a bitch" but in an acceptable way:)

PRAY FOR ME and hmm... and hmmm..

 

 

Hello the blog:)

I'm sorry I haven't written anything for so long

I'm kinda missing it...

A lot of things happened and I try to keep pace with everything

IN A GOOD WAY :)

My pay's ok. My job's doing alright with nice people surrounding.

It's been almost 8 months now :) I'm so glad.

I hmmm.. realise that I really want to "BE LOVED" and be in a friendly environment

where I don't have to wear a mask that often

I mean ok people management skill is one of the most critical talent to develop

and you shouldn't call it "fake" or "pretentious" or "confabulated"

I'm trying harder and harder to develop such low skills I've got but sooner or later

if it doesn't change me into "a devil wears prada" kinda person I'm ok.

 

 

Situation in my country is now not very pleasant

Our king even didn't give the speech on his birthday as usual

The airport was closed  because of the protest against the current government

Today the airport is now opened; however, with tremendous loss of our country

This affects every sectors

The economy tends to slow down especially the export sector

This also affects "consumer spending" meaning "consumer goods" meaning "FMCG:

Fast Moving Consumer Goods" meaning "Research Industry"

actually EVERYONE of US

RECESSION everyone it's coming now!

Both globally>> the dame US economy collaspe

>>the dame almost CIVIL war in my own beloved country

DOUBLE CAUSES>>DOUBLE EFFECTS

I'm sad how our country tends to devastate ok, too harsh that way

I think it's more like running "Backward" we should get moving forward, shouldn't we?

Look at Malaysia, can you see how they develop?

Look at Vietnam, OMG... they tend to moving faster than us

What are WE DOING? 

Sometimes I wanna escape

My stubborn side said go to hell I'll be leaving this I can be better off!

Sometimes I wanna help

I wanna do the charity to help I wanna be a part of the industry development

I really think I can help in some ways, low profile- approach

I don't expect much 

I like to live happily ever after like a fairytale

that was made for me (that's too much already uh?)

but if I cannot get it it also doesn't matter

and Thailand's situation's nothing like a fairytale

can a 23 y.o. girl survive?

I'm sure with every minute of being awake... things're gonna be better

Being awake... a key to every single mess....

edit @ 6 Dec 2008 11:39:21 by ~.~bOw~.~